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Compassion is the only thing that could create – therefore that which is – the created … what gets in the way of compassion right now? Resistence to the created.

Can this awareness move itself free of any sense of the past?

I walk, “feeling called” to speak with someone. It strikes me that he is tring to speak from an image… the only option is to play along… you are the authority, I am the one who is lost. I got in to the exchange apparently because I couldn’t face my own situation, In the conversation, I feel angry, I think, “because I am being used”. Communication doesn’t seem to be happening. I need to question the premise of his speech, but he doesn’t seem interested.

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The attached clusters can’t do anything about life. So… no images … not of sitting, drinking tea, “living” here, or there.

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this “problem” comes bearing its own solution.
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all pictures must die in this problem…. “with a person” “without a person.”

What is the root that keeps pictures alive?

Time/thought
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I’ve been “getting into trouble” in the kitchen it seems. The smokey pernicious one has found a place to hide in “my teas”, “my cooking”

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the vows and commitments are lists of possible symptoms that death will take

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understanding and therefore ending the root of disorder/death involves action… if this were to take place, there is action … not I have an idea of what order is and I’m gonna act it out.
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can life be totally involved right here, right now…?
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*concepts might help us express a response, but can they help us generate a response? No so surely we must understand?
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Just see… keep seeing… what happens there?
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*Life, at essence, is not a problem – here it is … and like a flower, its truth would bear ceaseless solution.
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your career… to live compassionately… is your birthright and living compassionately is the only place ecstasy could exist… accept life now – let grace heal your synapses – in so doing you won’t have a choice but to help, indeed “force”, others to live from the compassion in them.
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clumsiness? I left the water running … should I apologize? When would apology be important?… helpful? Ever? … point is, … in understanding, there is no choice. [nothing to forgive]
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*Is there one gesture that could end sorrow? Could I be a being of impersonal action? My awareness IS my marriage with my lover –

Can I let go completely, right here, right now… no… awareness is already let go. Can “I” do anything about “this”? Am I fully this?
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Compassion is “my” birthright. In understanding, what to do is choiceless. Seeing is “what to do”:
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There is no comfortable zone now… compassion, while being universally comfortable, would have no time to register comfort or not… comfort requires a past.
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Can consciousness JUST BURN

Nothing can stop a life of compassion
A compassionate life

You might nnot like the way it looks,
But within the way it looks
Is a compassionate life
The only bliss
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If a liver cell does it’s job
The body goes on living
That which it was a part of goes on

If the body does its job?…
The human community would go on living.
That which it was a part of goes on

If the human community would do its job?…
[The universe?]
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Just burn … be & see
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Renunciation:
- life creates what happens, not me
- you give up the process… not things…
- life decides what you give or receive


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If there were no hoping for something else, then pain would be jumped on spontaneously, impersonally… all energy would go into ceaseless solution of the challenge of life in relationship.
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Everything is known

that step away from the known as me is a consumptive sickness

what is happening where there is only the known? The seen? The experienced?
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Be the central human … “belonging” to nothing… already totally immersed in the field of action
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The human has to jam out in relationship. Life needs me to be fully active… Demands It!
If there is understanding, there is instantaneous action.
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Life has you at the forefront of activity and demands that you participate. It is not a question of resources or capacity.-
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How do you fight?
Forcing others to face the truth in themselves.
How?
BE THE TRUTH
How?
See the actual root of nonfact in yourself
What’s the root of nonfact in me?
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The vows are symptoms of the step away.
Awareness itself has not stepped away.
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Me is the distortion which acts as the basis for all disorder in consciousness.
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What is this smokey, dull, I’m tough guy?

When outside and adopted that “okay, I’ll play along thing and began to engage “the work” that “they” had chosen, and was stung by a bee. It was pissed. Usually I can hang wit da bees. Shouldn’t have to piss off the sisters.
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when are we gonna need this?
You’re not, you’re gonna need the mind that can handle things like this.
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encourage no reaction
through no reaction
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