letter to my sister...

Here is a letter which is working to communicate truthfully. See first that the words themselves are never the thing described. Just as the word “tree” is never the actual tree, the actuality that these words are working to touch, is the burning fact of your life, which I suggest, is the burning fact of life itself. So as you are reading, is it possible not just to hear the words, but to be aware of the burning fact of this moment… the feelings and reactions, of which these words are but a very small part


So we are working to gently point out and see the actual fact of what is happening in life,
So that maybe there can be a free mind which is seeing the truth,
Not tied to any beliefs, speculation or hope,
and therefore a life of universal action, absolute intelligence and responsibility,
effortless, energized meaning.


Life is showing us immense disorder. Disorder is the fact, isn’t it?
We can identify thousands of different expressions of disorder,
But if one looks, one will see that all disorder shares the same root.

Is it possible to simply look, be aware, and see the actual root of disorder in daily life?

Are we looking? Or are we so broken up, so used to our pleasures, our false sense of control, our giving our lives over to authority - that we are just giving up? Wanting to be told what to do? Wanting to find the so-called “right” authority to whom we can give the responsibility of our lives? Let’s see if we can work together a bit, look together and find out the root of disorder in life. There is no pressure in this inquiry, no authority, there is only your life, with its demand for creative action. Life is showing disorder… what is its root? We might have several explanations coming to mind…. “The economy”, “the environment”, “the evil of mankind”, “genes”, “my foolishness” but may I suggest, everything is so interconnected. Let’s question these reactions a bit and see if we can get clear. Not rely on speculation, theory or conclusions?

We know that we can control one expression of disorder, but then a new one crops up. We can end one war, but meanwhile other ones are in the making. So what is the root? The ACTUAL root , not a concept we can pass around and be authorities about.

So let’s just look. Feel it out.

You see… Life shows what it shows. We see what life shows - what life IS. Spontaneously, effortlessly immediately, the fact of our life is shown isn’t it? Right now it is showing fear… conflict… great anxiety and tension. That is the fact. So go really slowly here. See the beauty of this. No matter what I think about it, the fact of my life, the misery, the confusion, the struggle and strife, with the occasional pleasure, it is illuminated. So… is it possible to understand at a single glance, the root of our contradiction, our inner and outer disorder?

Isn’t conflict perpetuated in us when suddenly there is that voice which says, “ME, I am seeing disorder.” I realize this might seem like a very challenging statement, but really it is quite simple. The fact of life is shown spontaneously, so what is this voice, “me” that pops into the scenario? Humans have lived with this voice for thousands of years. We have made it noble, we have based our entire culture upon it, but I’m suggesting that if one touches this and looks a bit, one will see that just as life shows the fact, it also shows that this movement away from the fact as “me” is a nonsensical, conflictual phenomenon.

Isn’t this voice necessarily the past, the memory of that particular brain, standing up and saying “I am alive” Doesn’t it represent a cleft in the brain? Separation? And therefore everything it does merely perpetuates separation and the nightmare of human struggle trying to accommodate for this separation?

How? Just look. There is the fact, which is disorder, and then there is this observer, this thing that thinks it is somehow different or separate from the fact, and it thinks, “I’m gonna do something about the fact.” This is akin to trying to make yourself fly by lifting upwards on your own belt buckle, isn’t it?

Just see the truth of this. If one merely looks, observes the nature of that which life shows, one will see that any movement away from the fact as “ME” and “what I’m doing, not doing, etc.“ constitutes the foundation of ALL HUMAN DISORDER, but most importantly, the disorder in one’s own existence.

Wouldn’t a mind, seeing the truth of this, lose its capacity to react as “me”? Wouldn’t such a mind have no choice but to be completely involved in life, therefore completely free of fear, completely free of reaction, and therefore free of the root of disorder – spontaneously creative and responsible in relationship? Feel this out… see if you can see the truth (or falseness) of what I am talking about.